My daughter took this picture of me this morning.
Not too flattering huh?
So yesterday was actually the first day of my healthier me, but I didn't get a chance to write about it. Let me start at the beginning.
I have never been a thin person...maybe once or twice when I was in my late teens and early 20's. However it never lasted for longer then about a year. I am curvy. I have a large bust (even when I was thin) and I have curvy hips/thighs. Mostly I have been ok with that since I got married almost 18 years ago. My husband loves me and still tells me how beautiful and hot I am! (yes I know he is crazy but he is my crazy!!!) Then one day I was flipping through photos on my phone. My daughter loves to take my phone and make videos and snap all kinds of pictures. I never know what I will find! This is what I found....
This is a picture of my friend and I visiting on our loveseat. When I saw this picture I thought to myself "Holy Cow! Look how much of the loveseat I take up!!!" This was a slap in the face into reality. I never saw myself in the mirror like this. I guess I had rose colored glasses on! So, to tell you how I got this big.....no I don't eat bon bons all day.. About 2-3 years ago, I started jogging, I actually started to lose weight. The kind that people notice! However, my body did not like me doing that. I hated every step too! I have inherited problems with my feet. My mom has had the same problems I am having for quite some time, so when I told her about my foot pains, she knew exactly what it was. She was correct! I went to her foot doctor and he confirmed that I have plantar fasciitis. I actually have a pretty severe case of it. I have had one foot surgery and will be having another in the next week. Having these problems have really effected my ability to be active. We have always been a hiking, taking walks, active kind of a family. However, this foot pain has pretty much taken me out of all of that. So I went to my general doctor and asked if he could help me. I am currently at the heaviest I have ever been while not pregnant. I have 5 children and was basically pregnant or nursing from 1998 until 2006! I have tried programs without success. So my Dr. put me on a 1400 calorie diet and prescribed me an appetite suppressant. Since I still can not exercise, the 1400 calorie diet should help me loose weight.
I have no delusions that I will be a size 2, but I do have the desire to be able to hike with my family again, to have the energy to keep up with my kids, to be able to take a walk with my husband! ( plus I want to feel sexy again!)
So, Why am I telling you all this?? Simple. I need you to pray for me, to encourage me, and to keep me accountable.
If you are walking through this kind of journey, I would love to hear what has worked for you! I am excited about this new adventure, I have high hopes!
Many blessings to you all!
Christy
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