Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Stress, Diet, Surgery and Faith

How do all those things connect....Stress, Diet, Surgery and Faith?  Well for me this is how it goes...
A couple weeks ago, I went to the doctor to get some help with my ever increasing weight.  With my foot issues, I have not been able to exercise at all.  So my doctor put me on a 1400 calorie diet and gave me a appetite suppressant.  I have done well with staying within the 1400 calories without any cravings.  However, as my stress level has been rising, the urge to eat grows stronger.  Yes, I am one of those people who eat their emotions!  Plus I am a huge sweets eater, I would rather eat cake once a day and not eat the rest of the day! But I don't. :-)  
We all know that STRESSED backwards is DESSERTS!  So obviously God wants me to eat desserts right?  yea, I know....that's stretching it a bit...  

But who can deny that this doesn't look scrumptious?????  Add a little caramel sauce and I would be in heaven!!!!

So, why am I so stressed?  Well, here is what my ADD brain is currently wrapped up in....  5 days ago I had surgery on my right foot. ( I have plantar fasciitis in both my feet. I had surgery to lengthen the tendon last year, but my body develops a lot of scar tissue, so I have to have all the scar tissue removed. )  I have stitches, so I can't get it wet...its my right foot so I have to remove my walking boot and put on a driving shoe to drive, so it takes me twice as long to get into and out of the car, to take a shower, to walk pretty much anywhere.  So by itself, would be no problem...  But add in the fact that winter is coming very quickly, and my van, which is falling apart before our very eyes, still doesn't have any heat.  It has some electrical issues, which makes only one of the sliding doors work, the locks work only when they feel like it, and some of the windows have just given up on opening...oh yea, and no heat.  My husband was also giving our newly 16 yr old a driving lesson...he did great, until he pulled into our driveway.  He slightly connected my van with my husbands car....now the passenger door makes a horrible noise and will barely open.  Good thing it was our two cars and not some unsuspecting driver!

Does a cookie sound good?  Why yes it does! Good thing I am at therapy with my two asperger kids, so I can't get one!  

3 of my kids need tennis shoes, 2 of them have out grown pretty much all their winter clothes from last year, and I think all of them are in need of new socks and underwear. I miss my husband horribly right now.  He works two jobs and the only times we see him is Wednesday nights (which we teach a 7th grade religion class together) and Saturday and Sunday. 

On to the Faith portion....
Sunday was our 18 year anniversary. Although we didn't really get to celebrate (b/c I  just have foot surgery) I am so thankful that God brought my husband into my life and just the right time.   I am thankful that God has given me 5 energetic, crazy, funny children.  Some times I wonder what He was thinking giving me 2 kids with aspergers, 3 with food allergies, various other medical issues but really I could not imagine my life without any one of them.  Yes, my husband works two jobs and we hardly ever see him, but that allows me to stay at home and teach my kids and take care of them the way God intended me to. Yes, we have a ton of car issues, but I know that somehow we will make it through. God will provide us the transportation we need to get to the important things in life.  Yes, we definitely have a lot of health issues, and needs that could be met a lot easier if we had a little more money a month.  But, I know that somehow we will make it. 

I trust in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.  I know that He will take care of us.  How do I know this?  Because the bible says so.  He says so.  I don't know how He will do it, but I don't think I am meant to know.  I think God just wants us to trust in Him with all our hearts.  Put no other god before Him.  All glory, honor and praise to the Lord.  

So, yes my human body really wants a cookie..... but my faith knows I really don't need that cookie.  All I need is Him.

Peace be with you, 


Friday, October 10, 2014

This is the first day of the healthier me!!!

My daughter took this picture of me this morning.
Not too flattering huh?

So yesterday was actually the first day of my healthier me, but I didn't get a chance to write about it.  Let me start at the beginning.

I have never been a thin person...maybe once or twice when I was in my late teens and early 20's.  However it never lasted for longer then about a year.  I am curvy.  I have a large bust (even when I was thin) and I have curvy hips/thighs.  Mostly I have been ok with that since I got married almost 18 years ago.  My husband loves me and still tells me how beautiful and hot I am!  (yes I know he is crazy but he is my crazy!!!) Then one day I was flipping through photos on my phone. My daughter loves to take my phone and make videos and snap all kinds of pictures.  I never know what I will find!  This is what I found....

This is a picture of my friend and I visiting on our loveseat.  When I saw this picture I thought to myself "Holy Cow! Look how much of the loveseat I take up!!!"  This was a slap in the face into reality.  I never saw myself in the mirror like this.  I guess I had rose colored glasses on!  So, to tell you how I got this big.....no I don't eat bon bons all day..   About 2-3 years ago, I started jogging, I actually started to lose weight.  The kind that people notice!  However, my body did not like me doing that.  I hated every step too!  I have inherited problems with my feet.  My mom has had the same problems I am having for quite some time, so when I told her about my foot pains, she knew exactly what it was.  She was correct!  I went to her foot doctor and he confirmed that I have plantar fasciitis.  I actually have a pretty severe case of it.  I have had one foot surgery and will be having another in the next week.  Having these problems have really effected my ability to be active.  We have always been a hiking, taking walks, active kind of a family.  However, this foot pain has pretty much taken me out of all of that.  So I went to my general doctor and asked if he could help me.  I am currently at the heaviest I have ever been while not pregnant.  I have 5 children and was basically pregnant or nursing from 1998 until 2006!  I have tried programs without success.  So my Dr. put me on a 1400 calorie diet and prescribed me an appetite suppressant.  Since I still can not exercise, the 1400 calorie diet should help me loose weight.  
I have no delusions that I will be a size 2, but I do have the desire to be able to hike with my family again, to have the energy to keep up with my kids, to be able to take a walk with my husband! ( plus I want to feel sexy again!) 

So, Why am I telling you all this??  Simple.  I need you to pray for me, to encourage me, and to keep me accountable. 

 If you are walking through this kind of journey, I would love to hear what has worked for you! I am excited about this new adventure, I have high hopes!  

Many blessings to you all!